Some situations in life are entirely glum while a multitudinous of them are happy and to be cherished…the joyous ones make your life worth while, the sorrowful ones offer you strength and valuable lessons to remember for the rest of the journey…I have been through some of the most ecstatic ones and through some very traumatic moments…
The Down in the dumps moment:
- 13th June, 2000 – Evening at around 5:30 PM – Returned from the hospital where my mother was fighting off cancer; it was the medication that was having dreaded effects on her body…the chemotherapy had brought down the white blood cell count and resulted in septicemia…praying that this goes well, returned home and called up dad who was at the hospital, the reply – “The story of your mother is over…” CRASH! even now I don’t find words to express the moment…I guess I never will…me and my brother clung onto each other for a long time after hearing that…that i believe is the borderline for the saddest moment of my life…
Time has been a forbearing healer…the times immediately after that were like vacuum; life in its entirety had been sucked out…only one thought kept me pushing along and getting better – “My mom would have never liked to see the three of us – meaning my dad, my brother and myself – sad and depressed like this…” With this in my mind i tried to make sense of life and its complexity…am still trying to…it has been 10 years since this and when I look at old photographs I long to spend a few seconds with her…
Now the ecstatic ones…being a part of the wonderful family that I was born into, makes me ever happy…ever grateful to have a wonderful dad who I will always look up to, a warm loving brother that i can always count on…that apart there have been celebratory instances…
- February 1, 2006 – Me: “I love you!! Will you marry me!!”, and Sowmya: “What??” and then the acceptance; my feelings leapt like a kid being given every toy in the world!! She still makes me weak in the knees!!
- May 7, 2010 – Nervous and sweating/ pacing the corridors of the hospital like a mad man…then the doctor shows up…who’s the “Father”…impatiently I answer…”Congratulations! You have a baby girl!!”…emotions give you a kick in the gut sometimes and take control of you…this was one such moment…the instant I saw her, the happiness was immense! Bundle of joy – nothing better to describe her…”Amritha” she was…just like my mother…
Everything else in my life is just in between these two extreme ends…and forever they will be…
God bless…
time is the best healer….time is the best teacher too:) everytime i read ur blogs, i feel here's another chetan bhagat in making who comes up wit different ideas everytime:) great going Prashanth:)
Very good read!